Right or wrong?

I am so happy, happier than I have been in a long long time. I don't care what other people think about me and my writing to the guy i don't know to well. There is plenty of time to get to know each other. He is such a nice guy, with an amazing smile and it feels so natural to write to him.

I miss him, but that is one thing i havn't been truly honest about with friends. I don't what them to judge me. They probably see this like something that is or couldn't be serious. But if you don't give things a chance how will you than find out? Ok, i can see the hatch. 1) We have only meet twice and the first time i was a bit drunk. 2) We dont live in the same country.

But i don't see these to things as something that have to stop us from getting to know each other and so on.

He is really sweet and that is something i already felt the first time we meet, from the beginning. I feel that he is a honest person with a huge heart and that is what i will continue to believe.

Ok, everything im writing feels a bit stupid an naive, but when i meet people i usually leave them by themself after a while and kind of  "run away", but with this guy it didn't feel like i had to do that and sometimes you should trust the voice in your head that tells you that it's the right thing to do.

I feel so confused right now, so confused. I have been feeling so extremly nervous the whole week. Ok, it's only Wednesday now...

And now I'm feeling more nervous than ever because i sent an e-mail with sentences i personaly never would write else. I dont like the whole thing about writing from the heart because that means that you have to be completely honest. And that means that if the person that reads it dont like whats written, you have embarrassed yourself completely for nothing.

Okay, im overanalyzing it and overreact....

God night!
/Soffan

Unnecessary activities!

It's hasn't been much time for this blog lately. I've been working more than ever or at least it feels like I have.

Anyway the important thing is that I have not forgotten about my dear friend (this blog) and that i'm taking my time today to write something here. :P

Now it's acctually time for my "beautysleep" so I have to make this short. There is accually nothing i would like to say, but now when I'm sitting here and writing about nothing so can I grasp the opportunity and tell you why I'm still awake in the middle of the night.

I'm been painting for no reason at all. It's my second night painting instead of sleeping. It is kind of fun so I guess that's the reason for using my time to this unnecessary activity. xD

/Soffan

The 24th!

The 24th we celebrate christmas here in Sweden and I am loving it! It is one of my favorite celebrations of every celebrations we celebrate here in the North!


Today after work I meet up with my younger brother and my mum to choose out this years christmastree.

I'm pretty happy with the result even though we don't use to buy this type of firtree. It's a really tall tree so I'm crossing my fingers and hope for that it will be short enough to fit in our livingroom, hehe.


Tomorrow is my last day at work before i go on holiday, and of course it's a really long and heavy day that I have to look forward to, but it doesn't bother me. Well, at least not yet! ;) I got free "glögg" (I think it's a sort of wine with a taste of cinnamon, that's served warm with raisins and almond.) from a charismatic guy with a great charm and that made my day! xD

And this is all I have to say now!

To give you some christmasspirit I give you here a link to a great christmas-song preformed by one of my favorite artists, So this is Christmas with Robbie Williams!
Sheephugs to all of you out there!
/Soffan

The picture is taking some years ago at chistmas and it's my younger brother in the picture next to our christmastree. :P

Trouble sleeping

It's in the middle of the night. The sky is as dark as the deepest ocean and the stars are shining brighter than spotlights. Maybe it's time to start thinking about turn of the light, brush my teeth and go to bed? I should really do that because it wouldn't be wise to wake up late "tomorrow" and get use to it because that would only lead to me feeling very tired, fretful and unfocused witch would probably make me do a lousy job.

But now I'm still sitting here even thou I am writting about this subject in this very moment. Shouldn't all this talk about how good it would be for me to go to bed make me stop writting about it and insteed act for it?

It doesn't make any sense because I do feel really tired, but still I am not acting to do something about it! Sometimes I am really wondering how my logic sense is working... How do I really make my decisions about what would be the right and wrong thing to do?

I hope I can trust my judgement then I now will close my computer and leave this spot. I cross my fingers that I wont do anything stupid like start solving crosswords or something because that would suprice me a bit if I did. xD

Good night and sheephugs for everyone!

/Soffan

Another day in paradise!

I survived todays opening at work! I'm so relieved to have made it through my second opening ever and now there's no more openings on my schedule this month, this YEAR! :D

The one that checked my cleaning today couldn't even found that much to complain about my work.. Well, if I would have worked a few more hours today she would probably have been giving me a lot more complains that I would have to take care of, but I only worked 4h! ;)

I hope I wont be scheduled with more openings in the future. Hey, they have to see that it's not something that I am good at. XD

The worse thing with it is that it have to be done in 4h, THREE FLOORS in FOUR HOURS! It isn't reasonable! :O Exept the short time you have to do it in, I dislike that you have to use the elevator to get some of the gears(??) to the other floors! I hate the elevator. As always when I am forced to use elevator, every time, I get stuck in it or the lamps in the elevator blow out(??). Why does it always happens to me and non of the other staff-members have ever seen "the phenomenon"? =(

/Soffan

Hello!

Wow it was a while ago... but now I'm back! ;) Well, I acctually had another reason for loging in here and that reason wasn't to write anything..here. xD I'm working on the design on my other blog, but I havn't figured out how to put up pictures on it so far so this blog came to perfect use for my problem. :D

As allways I have to apologise for my spelling and grammar...:P I am so sorry!

Good night!
/Soffan