Unhappy and angry

I am unhappy.  Doing all I can do, but it doesn't go the way i want it to go anyway. As it seems now, I won't be albe to see my love this month. People are so stupid, self-centered and mean. This is the third time they don't even wants lift a finger to help me. Yes, unhappy is the correct description for it.

It doesn't feel good not being able to go and see him.

And the second problem is that i don't think i will be able to go and see him in december either. So stupid!

I feel so angry and disappointed of them. They won't have me there much longer, I am very sure of that. Do doubts!

Bye
/Soffan

Irritation can disappear in a second like it was nothing in the beginning

Why do you always make me so happy? Even then you're putting my patience on the test, by being headstrong when I am leting you learn me french. When my patience is on its way to fade away, you put me back on track. I get irritated of you some times, but you only have to look at me, speak to me, smile at me, and i forget about my irritation. You make me want to learn the language so I will be able to talk to you completly. You are my light. To have you in my heart makes every day a brighter day.

In a few hours i will be on my way to another day in my journey of language learning. It is soon time for my 5th (has half of my course already past away!?) frenchcourse-lesson and i feel more ready than ever.

Speaking of something completely different, my love did today look really hard for a solution to come and see me in Sweden soon. Haha, we are so pissed off the flight-company that we used to take before. It was the only cheap company that had flights going to our countries and they have decided to stop going our route. Not fun to have to take both train, bus and flight and another flight to be able to see eachother. :/ I don't want him to throwing away his money to take this opition.
But i know we will find a solution, we've done it perfectly so far.

Time to go to bed borh my french-course and my work is waiting for me in the morning, fun( = especially the last one) .

Good night my readers!
/Soffan

I welcome the future

I was so angry yesterday that i even begun crying uncontrollable. And in still really, really angry which have lead to that i have made a decision about making a change. To be able to make the change i have begun all ready to look for other options.

This is something i have been having on my mind for a while, i have just ignored the fact of how i want it. But know i have reached the point where i won't accept my unhappiness in this matter.
I have been keeping a good attitude and given a happy face every day, but know i don't feel like they deserve my good manner and etc. Bye bye some changes will be made! Good bye yesterday and welcome future!

/Soffan

The little rabbit

I have been introduced to a new game by Stéphane. It's one of those games you can't stop playing once you tried it. It's like the game Tetris. Impossible to stop playing even thou it is the same thing going on in the game over and over again. And the name of the game is...Winterbells. http://www.ferryhalim.com/orisinal/g3/bells.htm <------

Play, play, play haha! xD

/Soffan

Of love

I have just had another amazing phonecall with my lovely Stéphane. We have talked, been singing, singing together in italian, reading our first messeges, confessed our first thoughts about eachother and about our second meeting ever. Summary, another perfect end of the evening/night. Je t'aime mon lamantin. ;)

After been awake sense 6 o´clock yesterday morning, am I now pretty tired. Well, I have myself to blame when i stay up into the middle of the night to talk. Even though my sleep puts back in the corner of my living so am I very happy. I don't regret staying up talking.

It is difficult to be apart like us. He lives in France and i live in Sweden. Seeing him makes me so increadibly happy, but every time i have to leave is it so, so, so painful.

He has told me that he never before cried for a girl. That he never cries for no reason. That he put himself out vulnerable like that for me. I have no words.

He is the best thing that has happend to me, or as he says best meet.

This turned out to be a post of love. But as usual i did not know before what my text would be about.

I wish you a good night!
/Soffan

Football

Two days have past sense he wrote me something so today i wrote to him again. He is so cute..haha!:D He is busy with "a war" that he has against his neboure... I am relieved to hear that i didn't wrote him something that he didn't liked to read.:) Now i am gonna try to find enought focus to watch the EM-game Sweden vs England,but i think i'll need some snacks if im gonna make it trought.xD Time to go out and buy some i guess and when i'll find out if football is anything for me.

Happy girl! :D

I go to bed ever night with a happy, happy feeling. This is the best time in my life and i tresure every second of it.

/Soffan