February, already!?

It is February! How did the time past away so fast? Wasn't it Christmas for not so long ago? Im lost and scared. I don't want the time to go so fast as it does. Well, a part of me want the time to go really, really fast a few month, but in the bigger picture, i want it to go a little slower than it now does.

The end of December and the beginning of January was the best time ever, but after that it has only been negative. Maybe my negative attitude comes from me having to work very much after my holiday without a soft start, but i want nothing more than to have a long, long break from it now. So tired of doing the same thing over and over again. It doesn't give me something anymore. The same thing day after day. It's like "every day, Monday".

And to make it even harder...I miss my Stéph so, so, so very much. And there is nothing i can do about it because i can't go and see him now. Waiting is not fun.


Good night my "readers"! Hope you have had great days!

/Soffan

Indescribable happiness!

I feel enormous happiness in this moment. I don't care if i misspell words or in any other way write something grammaticly wrong.

This person, me, was an hour ago really unhappy and irritated, but now i feel increadibly happy.

Good news can really lift you up from the mud. I'm looking forward to the very close future. <3 p="p">
Happiness.

/Soffan

Unhappy

My work is making me depressed. No, one tries to help or anything. Went there crying, left from it after crying then i finished for the day. Cried two times after on my way home. I'm glad that i have such a great boyfriend that is there to listen to my problems and make me feel better. I LOVE YOU, Stéphane! Je t'aime.

Seriously i feel so tired after all emotions today. And i feel an enormous aversion to not going to work tomorrow. Don't want to get near of that place at all. But i have obligations, which means that i have absolutly no alternative than to do my job.

Unhappiness and hopelessness is not fun to carry around on.

Please let me get my holidays as i want them now when i send in my message.

I want to feel hopeful and happy again!
/Soffan

Unhappy and angry

I am unhappy.  Doing all I can do, but it doesn't go the way i want it to go anyway. As it seems now, I won't be albe to see my love this month. People are so stupid, self-centered and mean. This is the third time they don't even wants lift a finger to help me. Yes, unhappy is the correct description for it.

It doesn't feel good not being able to go and see him.

And the second problem is that i don't think i will be able to go and see him in december either. So stupid!

I feel so angry and disappointed of them. They won't have me there much longer, I am very sure of that. Do doubts!

Bye
/Soffan

Irritation can disappear in a second like it was nothing in the beginning

Why do you always make me so happy? Even then you're putting my patience on the test, by being headstrong when I am leting you learn me french. When my patience is on its way to fade away, you put me back on track. I get irritated of you some times, but you only have to look at me, speak to me, smile at me, and i forget about my irritation. You make me want to learn the language so I will be able to talk to you completly. You are my light. To have you in my heart makes every day a brighter day.

In a few hours i will be on my way to another day in my journey of language learning. It is soon time for my 5th (has half of my course already past away!?) frenchcourse-lesson and i feel more ready than ever.

Speaking of something completely different, my love did today look really hard for a solution to come and see me in Sweden soon. Haha, we are so pissed off the flight-company that we used to take before. It was the only cheap company that had flights going to our countries and they have decided to stop going our route. Not fun to have to take both train, bus and flight and another flight to be able to see eachother. :/ I don't want him to throwing away his money to take this opition.
But i know we will find a solution, we've done it perfectly so far.

Time to go to bed borh my french-course and my work is waiting for me in the morning, fun( = especially the last one) .

Good night my readers!
/Soffan

I welcome the future

I was so angry yesterday that i even begun crying uncontrollable. And in still really, really angry which have lead to that i have made a decision about making a change. To be able to make the change i have begun all ready to look for other options.

This is something i have been having on my mind for a while, i have just ignored the fact of how i want it. But know i have reached the point where i won't accept my unhappiness in this matter.
I have been keeping a good attitude and given a happy face every day, but know i don't feel like they deserve my good manner and etc. Bye bye some changes will be made! Good bye yesterday and welcome future!

/Soffan

The little rabbit

I have been introduced to a new game by Stéphane. It's one of those games you can't stop playing once you tried it. It's like the game Tetris. Impossible to stop playing even thou it is the same thing going on in the game over and over again. And the name of the game is...Winterbells. http://www.ferryhalim.com/orisinal/g3/bells.htm <------

Play, play, play haha! xD

/Soffan